March

March goes out roaring with the winds on and off. It is a month that has made its presence known this year. What winds have kicked up throughout the month. It is as if blowing away the cobwebs and dust that accumulates with winter. As if to stir us out of our hovels to come out to the sunshine. To see the rebirth that has been happening already. The rebirth that continues as March gives way to April. A rebirth that singles hope for what is ahead. It happens every year yet it can still bring awe to the most jaded of hearts. To see the wonder of nature waking up after sleeping for months. The beauty of the rebirth of all the colors that come with spring. So let the March winds continue this last night and day. Let is usher in April with its hope of renewal and rebirth.

What is life

It has been so long since I have done anything in this arena. Since last August!! Things have changed considerably in that time. I got over that creep, shortly after met the man I am now engaged to. He is an awesome and amazing man. Yet it has still been months of ups and downs. This past December marked the 10th anniversary of the death of my grandson Matthew. He was just going on 16 months when he died. This year was extra tough. Every fall it is like a lead up to December and most years I get through okay. But I think this year was extra tough because it was also the 10th annivesary of Princess Diana's death and there was so much media coverage leading up a concert her sons organized. It was a constant reminder. But I am so thankful I made it through that time. The support and strength I received from my fiance was such a comfort. Now it is spring time and nature is coming awake after months of being dormant. Coats and shoes are shed for light sweaters and sandels. Eventually jeans will give way to shorts. Tonight though I feel heavy and sad and not sure why. But life goes on and this down will pass to an up and back down. Life is a roller coaster. When the down times come one can either hang on or raise hands in the air, screaming all the way down. So here's to life with all its ups and downs, twists and turns. It is a reminder we are alive. What is that line dance like no one is looking. Enjoy each day, even when things are so hard, because it will pass and you will look back and realize you survived another hard time. Then look ahead to what will be coming up. I will chose to do that even though today I feel heavy and sad.