BLAH

It just seem as if things are blah lately and it is pissing me off yet bringing me down. I shake it off for a little while then it returns. It is like having a bunch of Mondays with a Friday thrown in every so often. In this state I tend to act out and do things I should not but I have been able to reign that in and stop before it gets to out of hand. Was like that a couple of years ago and I went way way down. I do not want to go there again so I strive to guard what I do and just ride out the worst. That is hard sometimes when the stresses around me seem to skyrocket. I find myself thinking "Stop the world I want to get off." One comfort is I know I am not alone, I know life feels out of control at one point in everyone's life, or most everyone. I am sure there are those who can keep it together and control all situations but I ain't one of them. At times situations control me for a bit then I grab it from the clutches of the abyss and take it back. So I will continue to carry on and keep one foot in front of the other or one knee if I am crawling instead of walking. It is the ability to keep moving forward in the face of obstacles that keeps me from totally giving up and just sitting in the muck and never working my way out. So onward and forward with life blah around me is how I will forge ahead.