Being Thankful

Being thankful is not an easy thing to do on a consistent basis. There are times I don't feel thankful or even remember to be thankful. However I know I am very blessed in my life. I have a husband who loves and adores me, three wonderful children. I also live in a beautiful place and have a great job. I have a roof over my head, can pay my bills and have food to eat. But there are also things that distract me from those wonderful things in my life. Things that will pass eventually but at times consume my thoughts. I am striving to not let them, to be thankful for those wonderful blessings in my life.

My Thanksgiving week has been a good one even though I missed my daughters very much. The weather here turned into every snowy conditions with winds on Sunday. Monday I made it to work and home again. It was dicey with the winds blowing snow across the road. Tuesday was icky but my husband was off work so he drove me there and picked me up. We went off the road a couple of times but I am thankful for the 4 wheel drive Jeep we had bought a couple of months ago. Wednesday the sun was out but Dennis still drove me back and forth to work. By the afternoon when he came the wind had picked up. Thanksgiving day was full of food and fun. My stepdaughter came over as did a friend of ours. Friday was sunny and we went down to the Greenbelt area to see what the river and falls looked like. It was beautiful. Today is Saturday and now we are just relaxing. It has been a good week and I am so thankful for it, for the wonderful times, even the scary times like sliding off the road a couple of times.

My life is full of blessings and even when things seem tense or hard I want to remember those blessings. Life is too short to spend time focusing on the negative and let it get me off track to how blessed I am. I hope I can remember my blessings even in the hard or tense times.

Been Awhile

It has been awhile since I have been on here. Between work and school I have been busy. One Saturday Dennis and I plus our dogs took a day trip to Yellowstone. Snow had fallen and it was gorgeous. We drove through Teton pass into Jackson WY then up through Grand Teton National Park to Yellowstone. We saw bison and deer.




At one point there were two bison by the side of the road. We pulled up so we could take pictures, from our vehicle of course. We were so close we could smell them. After we ate dinner at a cafe in the town right outside of West Yellowstone. It was dark by this time and as we drove home on highway 20 it was very dark.
























Then on Monday of this week we had our first real snow in he Idaho Falls area. It started on my way to work and snowed all day long. When I was driving home it was quite a downfall. Today it did not snow but it was very cold but so beautiful.







I have not taken much time to work on my writing but I am actually okay with that. I am really loving my job. My days just fly by and I am learning so much. So I guess that is the main updates for now

Why would I lie about my age

Fifty-Two

I have not lied about my age. Which year will I choose to forgo in the lying. I am 52 years old and there have been hard times and happy times. Very sad times and very traumatic times. I have lived in many different places as a kid and as an adult. I grew up in a large family, raised three wonderful children, divorced, remarried and buried a precious grandson.



I have been through intense counseling, faced horrific memories and was diagnosed as bipolar type 2 in my late 40's. In 5 of those 52 years I got caught up in what I (and a lot of others) thought was a Christian church but realized "oh f**ck I am in a cult" however i don't regret those years I was there because God worked in my heart irregardless of the cult leader's teachings.



I have been with one of my sisters while she buried her beloved husband of 37 years and I was with some of my siblings singing "the Lord is my Shepard" as my dad slipped from this earth. I held my then 16 year old daughter as her 16 month old son was unplugged from life support and he quietly and softly took his last breath and then as we buried him.



I have cried with intense pain and laughed with sheer joy. I have shared fun times with friends and family but also sorrowful times. I have experienced loneliness and dark deep pits that seemed impossible to get out of and then experienced the joy as I saw the light up ahead and moved towards it.



So no I have not lied about my age because each year has brought me to who and where I am today and I would not choose to forgo any of those years and the memories each one brings.