It has been awhile since I have written but in that time life has gone on. People say time flies when you are having fun, however in my experience time flies whether you are having fun or not. It has been a time of ups and downs. At times my emotions are all over the place but then other times I stuff them away. I think sometimes it is okay to do that when not stuffing them away can cause damage in a relationship that might be hard to overcome. There are days I feel like I am on automatic pilot, just going along unaware of what I am actually doing. Boy writing is just taking a lot of effort right now. I can't think clearly or even know what it is I want to write about.
As I rise in the cool of the morning for a brief moment I am unaware of the constant pain. Then the moment passes and once again my friend whose name is pain is with me. At times she disappears as if to let me catch my breath or maybe to fool me into thinking she is gone for good. I don't know what it would be like to not have her by my side but will she always be with me or will one day I be free of her?
