Dark Times

It has been so long since I wrote anything. It has been dark months full of pain and betrayal. Of wondering what to do. So much pain on top of more pain. It still sits but I am learning to live with it. I am not sure it will ever go away. The memories are not as sharp but they do come back every so often. On top of it I am homesick, I miss being near my family. I read a line from a Psalm that said "having sorrow in my heart daily." That really struck so very deep because it finally gave sense to what I feel inside constantly. I am realizing it is something I will carry with me no matter the choice I make. So I will think carefully, pray fully and trust completely in God to help me make the right decision.