Time brings truth

So it has been quite awhile since I wrote anything at all, over a month ago. In that time I realized the person I was so sad to lose was a manipulator and deceiver, He treated me so horribly yet it was like a time released bomb that did not go off right away. Then it did, the realization of what a horrible excuse for a human being he is and how abusive he was to me was like being punched. While he never hit me, he might as well have because that is what it felt like. I let him know, (in writing of course cuz he knows how to talk a good game) point blank how he treated me, he was abusive etc and it has been over a month and nothing back. As far as I know he was moving on to his next victim while getting rid of me. Cruel and callous man for sure, no conscious or remorse what so ever. I have heard from a few people who have come in contact with him through where he works and they all have said he gave them a weird feeling, gave them the heebie jeebie. One person who met him while we were seeing each other said he had no substance, no depth. Which I can now think back on our conversations and while he had a lot to say never of any value or depth or conviction. Knew alot of nothing about alot of stuff. Still doesn't mean it did not hurt or I still wanted to see his heart change and come back to me. However I am doing nothing to put myself in his path. In fact I do not use any business in the area where he works and lives. I am thankful he is out of my life yet the attraction is still there. It is that destructive streak of a down cycle I get in and I am beginning meds once again. He is not the reason, what went on with him is the straw that broke the camel's back in a 14 month time period of shit going on. So there is an update if anyone reads these. But I also do it for myself.