Emotions and living life

I am going to my brother in law's funeral and it will be very emotional for all attending. The pain and sorrow are unmeasurable yet there will be laughter as we remember this wonderful man. Can you imagine being someone who does not let themselves experience emotions of any kind? Who believes it is better to just ignore that messy stuff. What a sad way to live, I would rather experience pain, sorrow and all those sad emotions. If let myself go through those then on the plus side I am open to experience joy, love, laughter and all those positive emotions. To just stuff it all down makes one a very bitter unhappy person. The hurtful things that happen to us just don't go away. They come out somewhere in ones life. Life is too short to not experience all the emotional mess that comes with it. How can one truly enjoy themselves if they are on guard all the time? I want to be remembered as someone who cried, laughed and truly loved those around her. To not hold onto old hurts so that I miss how on the present. That word has a double meaning-it can right now but it also is another word for gift. Each day is a gift, open it up and experience what the present has to offer. We have this moment then another moment. Don't spend so much time and energy closing oneself off as to miss those moments that come. They can be happy, sad, funny, scary, angry. I want to experience all life has to offer, I want to let myself experience joy on hearing a baby's laughter or the deep sorrow that comes from an unexpected death. Laugh hysterically at my dogs antics or hide my eyes because the scary part of a movie is on. And there are those out there who might say well that is easy for her to say she has not experienced the things I have. I have experienced many of the cruel things people do to others. Painful as it was I faced those things and came out so healthy and free on the other side. And right now there is stress and pain going in my life that is burdensome but again life it too short to ignore the emotions that come with what is going on now as well as experiencing the positive things. We only have now, this moment.