LIfe

I moved to Idaho Falls with my husband who accepted a good job with a company doing what he did for 20 years in the Navy and liked doing. A bonus is his daughter lives here so he would get to see and spend time with her. And they have been and that is fantastic. I was okay with moving here because I wanted him to have a chance to get close to his daughter as I am close to my kids. But this next summer it appears she will be moving to the Seattle area. Her grandparents bought a house there, sold theirs here and are going. Her mom says she has a good job offer there and is also moving. So now it has me wondering what was the purpose for all the emotional upheaval in my life and my daughters lives if his daughter is just moving away. I miss my girls so much it hurts. When I first moved here I wanted so badly to go back to San Diego but ever since I went to Phoenix at Christmas time I realized that is my home and I am homesick. I was trying not to tell Dennis how I felt because I know he loves his job. I don't want him to carry guilt around for taking me away from my family but finally I told him because he felt like I was keeping something from him. He said he knows I feel that way, he can tell. Oh let's add in the fact that this winter has been so dreary, the sun is so fleeting and I am coming down with the winter blues. When I come home from work I just want to crawl under the covers but I don't. Staying motivated is hard to do and wanting to write is a chore. UGH I know winter will pass and the sunshine will come again but right now the blues have settled in for the rest of this winter and I have to live with it.