Homesick

I have lived in Idaho since June and it still does not feel like home, not one little bit. I miss my family and friends. I especially miss my daughters. I have prayed and am positive about living here but still nothing. I want to move back to Phoenix but his job is here and unless he can get one there then Idaho is where we stay. Also coming here meant he was near his daughter but now her mom and her are moving out of state so what the heck!! I was at peace with coming here because he could build a relationship with his daughter but with the move she will still come visit but she could visit us just as well in Phoenix as she can here. I did not want to talk to Dennis how I felt but a friend encouraged me to and I did but I don't feel it cleared the air much. Like there is something hanging but I have said what I feel is what I needed so it is now up to him. I am not saying we would move tomorrow we both have commitments to jobs and financially we can't afford it now plus there is the fact he needs to have a job there for us to go. So for now here we stay and I will get through it. I have to look to God and allow His will to be done even if it means staying here.

well I am exhausted. Working long long days at work this past week have taken their toll and while it only after 11 on a Saturday I am ready to lay my head on my pillow and go into dream world.