Venting!

I am trying so hard to be selfish or sound like a spoiled brat but I want to move back home. I miss my family so much and I was really hoping in no more than 2 years we could do it. But now maybe not and I am not happy about it. I am accepting of it but I am not happy about it. I will not let my husband know how I really feel because the reason involves him but not in a bad way. I understand the whys of it but it still sucks. Blah this place does not feel like home. Don't get me wrong, it is beautiful here and it has been great seeing places that I never thought I would but still it is not home. Also I do like my job and feel very blessed to have it. However outside of my hubby and my job what else do I have here. I have no friends and haven't met anyone I want to be friends with, the type of friend that I can hang with, have a few drinks or even getting drunk. Someone to hang out with all night. Or to laugh at the silliest things with, get my nails done, etc. I miss my family, I miss my friends and I am trying to get passed being so sad and down about it. I have shut myself off from God and I know that is not right. When I start I get angry and start crying. I find it is easier to just ignore how I feel and move on with life here. I know that is not right but right now it is how I survive. Well I am done venting for now. It is late and I have to get to bed. I have to work tomorrow.