Life just goes on

So life just goes on with not a lot changing. I am trying to have a better attitude and work with my husband not against him in things going on. It can be hard because after awhile I get tired of being around my step daughter but it is what it is. I need to just keep the focus that this really will not last forever. That eventually she will graduate high school and hopefully go to college. Just like hopefully my own son will get his act together and move out. I guess the only way to describe how I feel is resigned to how things are now. I get sad when I think of living so far away from my daughters. I feel lonely but I know only I can do something about that. Of course it is really hard right now, we had planned to go back home for graduations but just could not swing it right now. I know it was the right thing to postpone the trip till later but I am still sad and down about it. However I need to get myself up because I know my husband fears he will come home one day and find I have packed up and left. That is not me and who I am to ditch my responsibilities and commitments but he still has that fear. I need to start looking ahead, when the days are nice I try to get out walking with the dogs. So life just goes on with not a lot changing but I am working on a better attitude about it.