It is hard living in a house with someone who can't be trusted. My step daughter is that person which makes her so much more unlikable. But I give myself props for trying to like her and acting that way. I am basically a nice person so I will act out of that instead of being surly. I have my limit, my husband works rotating shift work so there are times I am taking her back and forth to school 4 days a week by the end of the fourth day I have reached my limit. Thank goodness school is almost over!! I am also tired of having to adjust my work schedule around it. I know I am pissing and moaning but today was just something. I caught her in a lie, we had asked if she had seen my son's towel that he has had for years, even describing it and she said she did not know but I had my suspicions. So I checked her laundry basket and low and behold there it was. When I asked her she played dumb and the oh I didn't know that was it. Geez she is almost 15 years old give me a break. My husband doesn't really want to hear it and he tried to say I know she is irresponsible. I said no she is a liar and rude and disrespectful to him. That is another bone of contention, she can be bossy, manipulative and disrespectful in how she treats and talks to him and he says nothing. Don't get me wrong I know teenagers can do that but this is on a regular basis even when he just asks her a simple question or helps her with her homework. My own son mentioned how much he notices it and if he does then you know it is bad because sometimes he is in his own world. He also said he is getting tired of being blamed for stuff she does. Like this candle that she gave me, it matched a bathroom perfectly so I put it in there but it has since disappeared. I know she took it but my husband tried to say that maybe my son did and all I could say is why would he. He tried to say that maybe he gave it to his girlfriend, I said he would not do that. If he wanted to give her a candle he would go buy one not take one sitting on the counter in the bathroom. By the way my son is a putz and I told him that tonight but I said when he gets his life together he won't be a putz anymore. I am disgusted with him also and he best get it together for sure. So I am not a parent that thinks my kid's shit don't think I just know he has more class than that. But at least he is working but he talks of stuff he wants to do but so far no follow through. AHHH stop the world I want to get off!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am sooo thankful for my job, it is the only sanity in this out of control roller coaster I feel like I am on. I also miss my husband and I, my son also mentioned that we don't do much together anymore. Again if he notices it then you know it's an issue. I trying to roll with the punches but it is hard, I miss us!! I want to be selfless and not selfish but not an easy task to do especially when we were always doing things together and I miss that. I miss the romance and intimacy we shared, it is lessening for sure. I understand that yes we have a kid in the house again but he tends to put her above our marriage and that scares me. Ugh well it is late and I have to get up early for work.
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