Questions without answers

I miss San Diego, I miss the ocean. The last couple of weeks that has been growing stronger. I miss it plain and simple! It was the first place I lived that I truly felt like I was home and I honestly thought that we would stay there. I don't understand why it did not work out that way and that is one of those questions without an answer. The ocean made me peaceful when I was restless or hurting. The sound of the waves is soothing to my soul. I have yet to find anything here that does that. I want to be able to put my toes in the wet sand at the water's edge. To feel the sun on my face and warmth in my body. To let the crashing waves fill me up with peace and hope. Life where I live now is so flat line, no pulse to this place. I miss living near the ocean and I don't understand why we could not stay there, why God did not have things go that way. Instead I am living in a place with very cold weather and hardly any sun over the winter and a small town with alot of small town attitude. I want to go back to live in the Southwest either AZ or CA but here we stay for at least 3 more years. I miss living in San Diego but I want to start counting my blessings instead of looking at the negative. I need to start counting my blessings and stand fast in what I know to be right. Know God is with me in this lonely and dark time and hold fast to that truth.